barrington99@gmail.com AUGUST 30, 2012 Today Paul and I met with the surgeon I’ve been referred to, Dr. Y—. It went…okay. On the plus side, she was extremely clear in her explanations of things. On the minus side, there was some social awkwardness. I should start (as we did in the appointment) with the scan results from … Read more
Six weeks from the surgery, flown by. In some ways like it never happened (though of course in many ways like it did.) Into my third week (or is it fourth?) back at work. And it’s also the third week of my second course for the semester–a five week intensive on the topic of fairy … Read more
Currently there are four seasons of Mad Men on Netflix. I’ve always figured it would be one of those series that would be fun to plow through hours at a time when the opportunity presented itself, and with my recent illness and end of my writing project, I thought the time was right. I’m halfway … Read more
August 27, 2012 Ugh. CT / PET Scan today. The experience of scans themselves were not so bad. I didn’t get any of the rare but dread reactions to the contrast solution (I think these included skin hardening, possibly leading to death. There are pros and cons to actually reading the permissions you are signing.) … Read more
Sunday, August 26, 2012 Tomorrow: The first day of classes at USC, the last date upon which I can get ten dollars off a Victoria’s Secret Bra, and the date of my pre-operative CT-PET scan. It still seems unreal a lot of the time. Many other things on my mind–work was crazed on Friday. We … Read more
August 25, 2012 Things I am already doing to help my case: Meditating again… I once had a practice. I had a tendency to act like I still had a practice, but I didn’t. I do now. Twenty-five to thirty minutes in the morning and the evening, ten or fifteen minutes mid-day at work, and … Read more
When I first understood I had endometrial cancer, the first place I turned was the internet. Before I reached out to friends or family in the 3-D world, I reached for my computer. Granted, I was sitting in a room with no people and a computer–but regardless–the internet was where I took my fears–searching for … Read more
August 22, 2012 Wednesday Long, strange day. A meeting with my producer and his latest intern at Soho House in the morning. Both are upbeat and encouraging, but no one has magic solutions. I’m anxious and peeved that notes are arriving few and late, and I can’t entirely hide it. I blame it on the … Read more
If today were a work of art, I would name it: Last Day with Uterus
Every morning when I come into work and boot up my computer there is a new wallpaper on my desktop. I have been screen-grabbing them just to show you. Who provides these wallpapers? Dell? Microsoft? Unknown. But my computer is a slow booter-upper, and thus I gaze at them for a few moments every morning … Read more